Paradigm I belong to!!

Am I a positivist? Is this internal tension within me to find the right path? Do I ascribe to a certain set of knowledge because I think that is the right thing to do? Does that make me a positivist? So, what does it mean really to not be a positivist? Who constructed these terms anyway? Can I live my life claiming to co-create reality and construct as it happens? Then, how do I get involved if I do not have a stake? Are these naive questions or an attempt to engage in theoretical sophistication? In the end what do I value most and which is my political position? Am I afraid to get pigeon holed into a category?

In this search and turmoil, why am I continually coming to 'holier-than-thou' position time and again and that becomes a position for me to privilege my approach/ thinking and dismiss the rest. Isn't that what politics is all about?